རང་དགའ་བའི་བུ་མོའི་བསྟོད་རྩོམ།

How???

Life shaded with dark.

I never thought something special is going to become on that day and I wasn’t sure that I could even reach her and have a nice conversation. Mr. Rabgay was quite eager on that, I imagined him like an eagle whose eyes were searching for food down on earth flying in the sky. But, this gentleman is not exactly what I described here instead he is a handsome charming guy and most girls of CLCS might be dreaming him to be with him( But not all). Just to get a chance for a night walk. Most of all, he is helpful but a good friend indeed. Coming on my real track, we were there for the reception of first-year students. Waiting whole day sacrificing lunch under the burning scorching sun with gumboot on my leg which is much more additional 5 degrees Celsius hot. But I didn’t blame anyone rather I was pretending to be okay. By then, it was evening and I saw an angel, I mean real gorgeous girl resembling the beauty of an angel. 

We saw her, Rabgay and me. She was accompanied by some friends and as soon after she sat on the bench. My friend Rabgay stood up for some click and he got a nice postured photo of her. Which I shared from him begging like anything just for her photo. Though he was quite reluctant to share the photo, I got at the end. I was searching for her WeChat and Facebook accounts through some of my known friends. 

It was like a miracle that came to me in disguise, though I saw her first time in the reception I never thought she will be that beautiful in Kira when I saw her on the way to class. As far as I knew her till today, she is straight forward, not gullible, but careless and moody as she mentions frequently. 

Miracle is not always as expected to favor me, the darker side of my life shaded the way. I didn’t know fate is that cruel making my heart bleed. It’s quite subtle to know the life she lives and she longs for. She followed her way leaving the blooded heart behind, I told for her forgiveness for distracting her and taking her time but she reacted me the same way I did. Now, I would always go on Messenger and look at whether she is active or not. But it is difficult for me to say Hi just because she left me. I would use all my stamina to know what she is doing, at what state and position she might be going through. 

Now, I was blinded to look forward to which way I should go. I am preferring shortcuts to ease all the pains I am going through. Life is not always the way you take; sometimes it makes us follow the others too. 

Sorry if it hurts you.